How did I know I was in love with you? I could say it was the first time that you called my name.  The sound of your voice was so sweet and musical when you called my name, making my heart wishing to hear it over and over. BUT NO! That wasn’t on our first encounter.

Again I could say it was the first day you wrote me that beautiful love letter declaring your love for me. I felt so special with my head in the clouds, smiling to myself, saying I was the luckiest woman on earth. BUT NO! That was not the day either.

It might have been on that fateful day that you saw me crying and said I was beautiful, although I had tear stains on my cheeks and puffy eyes. The warmth of your embrace gave me strength to smile, laugh and drop a tear of joy even when I had just finished all my tears of pain. BUT NO! That too was not the day.

All these glimpses of what was in our relationship could have been the perfect moments for me to love you forever. Yet those days to me were days of questions, anticipation and curiosity. My mind kept asking me what you wanted from me. I lived the moment with you because no one else had ever given me such attention. When you went silent and I felt alone, I called out your name. When you wouldn’t pick up my call to let me hear your voice, I became desperate. Days and weeks went by without as much as a word of comfort from you, giving me sleepless nights. I was frantic, not knowing why that bothered me so much. When the realization stroke that I was losing you, I knew without a doubt, that I had fallen in love with you.

That moment released assorted feelings within me. I knew you had been the one who sustained me. You had been my help. I had not realized how much I trusted in your unfailing love till you seemed to fade away. Your promises of love for ever echoed in my mind and I asked myself if you would still love me. With every passing day, I prayed and trusted in you. I prayed never to be a fool again. Your words of affirmation lingered in my heart and mind though you seemed so far away. I knew without a doubt that you loved me and still do. The things you taught me are coming back with each passing day as I hold onto your promises of love. The memories of us together give me renewed strength for you had carried me through those huddles that I could not go through. Now when I whisper my heart out to you, the sound of your voice lifts my spirit.

O that I had the wings of a dove; I would fly to you just to give you a big warm embrace. You had given me everything a woman could ever want, and that was YOU. You loved me despite my selfishness, arrogance and pride. Yet in my moments of need, you were there to fight by my side. Upon you now, I cast all my cares, because I know you will sustain me and never let me fall. You have given me you and I cannot help but say that I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU.

The above letter is to the one who holds my heart in every way. Yes. You alone know the issues of the heart and I will be a fool to not trust in your unfailing love Jesus. Thank you for loving me long before I knew you.

There are certain things you don’t just share with the public and expect them to believe you. It is not every day that you hear a genuine confession of love. Our lives have become so private that we are afraid to openly tell the ones we love and care for how we feel. We have become so arrogant and prideful in our affections for one another, that we have hidden our true feelings and mostly express what the other would like to see and hear from us. Being in a relationship has become more of a pass time situation, where you don’t see a need to tell the other how you truly feel. Don’t worry, I am not ruling out the fact that you might have been hurt badly and are only trying to protect yourself from the pain. Just remember that if you guard yourself too tightly, you will end up hurting yourself, when you lose The One. Do you only have to be in a romantic relationship to know that someone cares for you?