1 Help, Lord, for no one is faithful anymore;
    those who are loyal have vanished from the human race.
2 Everyone lies to their neighbor;
    they flatter with their lips
    but harbor deception in their hearts.

3 May the Lord silence all flattering lips
    and every boastful tongue—
4 those who say,
    “By our tongues we will prevail;
    our own lips will defend us—who is lord over us?”

5 “Because the poor are plundered and the needy groan,
    I will now arise,” says the Lord.
    “I will protect them from those who malign them.”
6 And the words of the Lord are flawless,
    like silver purified in a crucible,
    like gold[c] refined seven times.

7 You, Lord, will keep the needy safe
    and will protect us forever from the wicked,
8 who freely strut about
    when what is vile is honored by the human race.

Read more at https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/search=Psalm+12&version=NIV#yhVYTdYEkrqFxe8o.99

A few days back, I read Psalm 12 above and went to sleep. For days, the words within the Psalms kept coming back to me and this morning, I decided to write on it. David calls out to God for HELP, because he cannot trust anyone around him. There’s no one who does what is right and the faithful to him are gone. Who is still loyal and godly? He then calls upon the Lord to silence those who think they know everything. David’s agony over the lost of faith and justice pushes him to call out to the Lord for help. 

God hears David’s cry and tells him “Because of the oppression of the weak and the groaning of the needy, I will now arise…I will protect them from those who malign them.” Hearing that answer, David confirms the truth about God. He points out one ultimate truth about God that I often forget, which i believe most of us do to. How many times do we often stop in our tracks to say ‘The Words of the LORD are FLAWLESS?’ David understood God’s authority and that’s why he ran to him in the first place. When God heard his cry, he reminded himself of God’s faithfulness and it is probably through his experiences with God and the difficult situations God pulled him out of. This verse kept coming back to me, and I would find myself walking on the street reciting the line over and over in my head. When i prayed, I found the words coming out of my mouth, reminding me that God’s word is true and he is without fault. 

One of the things that had been plugging my mind as well had been the issue of Israel and Palestine, and the innocent people who were bombarded 24/7, as well the issue of Boko Haram in Nigeria and now cross-border Cameroon. After reading this psalms as well as the previous Psalms, I prayed so much for the innocent people who were killed, abducted because of someone interests and personal achievements. Where is justice in targeting the defenseless and the innocent?

It just so happened that a friend who is visiting had similar questions on the issue of Israel and Palestine. God chose the nation of Israel for a reason. Should we stand by and watch innocent people get kill? What would Jesus do in the situation in Gaza? Will he say kill the Palestine and save Israel? Will he extend his love and healing to both sides? The people of Gaza are civilians who have nothing to do with the war. When launch a bomb, does it differentiate between a soldier and civilian? No. It does not have a mind of its own. It has one objective alone, which is to land somewhere and explode, which will cause destruction to whatever is next to it. In a news article, Ibrahim Hamamra expresses his feelings and thoughts after his brother was shot, leaving behind 3 children. The artilce says ‘Ibrahim, his eyes red and face pale, says feelings were running high on the day of the protest in Husan, “because of the scene of the massacre in Gaza. People’s emotion erupted and they wanted to express that. [Israeli] settlers often come here, they shop here and nobody bothers them.” The clashes happened “just because of the incident that happened in Gaza”. Ibrahim says the violence began, as so often during Ramadan, after evening prayers when a group of Israeli soldiers stationed themselves at the entrance to the village outside the mosque. A couple of dozen young men began throwing stones, and the violence escalated.

What then should we be doing as Christians? David set a perfect example for us to follow. Cry out for HELP to the one who can do something about the chaos. Many times God has reminded us in his word of his sovereignty, and we like David should look to him. His word is flawless, when he says ‘I will protect them from those who malign them’,  therefore like David, we should say together ‘O LORD,  you will keep those innocent families safe and protect them from such people forever.’ 

Who is my enemy? Who is your enemy? What did Jesus say about your enemy? What did Jesus say about the oppressed? These are questions I wrestle with, when I think of the old Testament and the things that went on. Jesus came to give us a heart of love no matter what, but for us to trust and believe that his word is truth and should not be doubted. Before you think either of the countries should be destroyed, ask yourself if the children, men and women without weapons deserve to die. God’s love extends to everyone and that’s all he ask us as his followers, is to see things differently than the world sees it. 

I woke up this morning and was wondering how I would spend time with God. As I sat quietly, a conversation I had with a friend, on esteem flash through my mind. A voice said ‘Share your story’, and that’s when I knew what my conversation with God and the circle of friends reading this would be.

About 12 years ago, I got pimples on my face a year after I hit puberty. That didn’t bother me much, because I had seen my aunt’s pimples treated. Three years later, the pimples were aggravated, and I was blamed for pinching them and doing all what nots, which wasn’t true. It didn’t help that I was a sports person and spent half my days playing under the sun. After playing, my face would be burning even after the sun had gone down. We went and saw a doctor who prescribed some pills. The pills messed up my hormonal system. They were given in line with pills for my knees. So I stopped the pills altogether. The pimples disappeared for a while and reappeared.

For a while, I refused to concentrate on my appearance, because it just brought depression. I wondered what people thought when they looked at my face.  Over the years, people gave me all sorts of advice to do this; do that. I kept asking God why he could not just take it away. He was able to heal the lame, raise the dead and heal the woman who had been suffering for years. Why couldn’t he just take this away from me?

Four years at university, I refused to let it bother me, but towards my last year in 2012, I went to see a dermatologist. I was not too happy when she asked  me what I have been using on my face, and if the sun aggravated my pimples.  She prescribed  pills, cream and lotion and told me to come back after a month.

I had hoped for an explanation, a screen test on my face and the reason why I had had this for years. Well, I went home and obediently took the pills, and had my face burnt by the cream. Everyone asked me what I did to my face, which did not help me at all. I was sick from internal bleeding for a week and got a fever. It was about two weeks before one of my dear sisters traveled  back to her home country, and she wanted a roomie photo. Now looking back, I was not particularly thrilled about the photos, because my face looked scared and battered. I felt really ugly and unfit to see myself.

To cover my feelings up, I switched into my old self, which used to be ‘Tom boy’. As long as I acted tough, nothing could get to me. That was a lie I kept telling myself. I wanted to feel beautiful and pretty. It didn’t help that my friends called me pretty. I am grateful that they did.

After I moved to the cooler parts of Nairobi, the temperature improved my face along with aloe vera scrub and honey soap that I had found. My pimples began to disappear, allowing me to feel pretty and happy. It started dawning on me that I had for years, thought myself ugly because of my pimples. I had defined my happiness based on how I looked and what people thought of me. I broke down and told God I was sorry. I asked him to take it away once and for all. I was talking and not listening as I have always done half the time. I went back to see the dermatologist, but she was not there and I never went back. My face cleared up and I was able to take a photo.  Everyone wanted to know my secret, but I had no secret to tell. I just explained exactly what had happened, not to mention that I was in the hospital for a week going through other treatments. I do believe those many injections and pills had something to do with the quick recovery on my face. So for 8 months I enjoyed a cleared pretty face.

A week before my departure to home, Cameroon, , I went back to the campus where I had lived for 3.5 years. With the hard water there, my pimples came back like they never left. O my word! I could not believe it. “I am going home and was hoping to show my mother my face without pimples and now I have nothing to show but more pimples”. I felt back into depression, although I had smiles on my face. I lost confidence in many things and just wanted to hide my face, especially now that I had given up my coping mechanism and just wanted to be a normal lady.

I travelled to England and could not stand some of the stares people gave me. I just wanted to go home and stay with my family. I asked God to help me find my inner happiness. Tears flowed down my face as I laid there in pain and sadness. After praying for days on end, a peace came over me and I went and saw a dermatologist, who screened my face.  I was relieved when he found that I had been suffering from Acne.

There’s mild acne, which causes blackheads here and there, but then disappear, and there’s the aggressive acne that’s hormonal based. We are born with male and female genes, XY, and some people tend to have one of the others dominate. I was not surprised when he explained that I had quit an amount of male hormones that were aggravating my acne suppressing my female hormones. What are the odds taken that I have a twin brother?

So he gave me pills to take every day 2 hrs before I eat or 2 hrs after I eat. I was also given a cream to put every night. My treatment began in October 2013, and I have been on it till now July 19^th 2014. The first 3 months showed no signs of improvement, so he added another pill, which is used for birth control as well as treating acne. This is only used for aggressive acne and for the purpose of treating the acne. So I was placed on it for 6 months.

I prayed very hard for God to bring healing in my heart, so that I could enjoy the benefits of the appearance. I felt like a load had been lifted off my heart, but then there was that lingering feeling; who was I trusting? I felt like I was betraying my trust in God. Then he brought me comfort through his word, reminding me of his love and affirmation of who I have always been in him. I am his daughter and he loves me for who I am. He wants me to be happy and doctors are his hands on earth. He will use them to bring healing to his children when they trust and obey him. As I marvelled at his love and trust, my facial appearance became smooth and shining.

I realized that in my years of unworthiness, I had found comfort in depression, which blocked out God’s voice. His healing could not reach me, because I had given up hope. I had trusted him to heal my knee and he did, so why hadn’t I done the same for my face? Being able to know that I was suffering from something and not just the foods I ate enabled me to know that I could be cured. True healing for me as I can see now, didn’t come just from the meds I was taking, but it came from the acceptance that I was pretty despite my acne. I made a decision to be happy even when everything is telling me no. I would say yes to life, yes to joy and yes to love even when my mind was struggling to comprehend what I was doing. It was not a coping mechanism, but a choice to be me. This happiness from within brought out the best in me.

God’s healing begins with our hearts, when we can truly accept our situation and understand that he is in control. I see myself over the years and my pictures today; I know I have a testimony to share.

”Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to adorn themselves. They submitted themselves to their own husbands, like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her lord. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear” 1 Peter 3:3-6

Every day is learning experience for me, and I praise God and thank him for every situation that enables me to draw closer to him and to understand his ways. In the silence of my room two minutes after i woke up, I realized i have not really sat down to give God the glory. So I share this with you in hopes that it will help you find your true happiness and healing. True healing comes from a partnership with God inside.

For you created my inmost being; you knit me in my  mother’s womb. I praise you because I  am fearfully made…my frame was not hidden from you when I was made in that secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. Psalm 139:13-16.

Some years ago, God spoke to me through this passage about the marvel of the physical body – my own body, in particular. The body is a divine masterpiece, planned ages in advance, made of materials formed in the secret depths of the earth and knit together in the womb by the Creator’s invisible hand. I became concerned that I treat this masterpiece of my body with the care and hour due it; that I maintain it in the best possible condition to fulfill its God-appointed function.

Again and again throughout history, men have sought to construct a building to accommodate God. They have lavished time, labour and wealth upon it. At best, however, such a building can serve as a place to offer worship, never as God’s  dwelling. “The Most High does not live in houses made by men” (Acts 7:48).

God has a different plan. At the beginning of human history, he fashioned a temple for Himself with His own hands: the body of man. Then He worked out the plan of redemption by which that body, sanctified by faith in Christ’s sacrifice, could be offered back to Him to be a temple of the Holy Spirit.

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit,  who is in you, whom you received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price . Therefore honour God with your body” (1 Corinthians19-20).

MY THOUGHTS

At the beginning of human history, God fashioned a temple with his hands, whereas the physical building of a church is a place of worship, which God cannot dwell in. God’s spirit des come and flow a mist the believers, but when everyone departs, God departs. He comes to meet us in church as well as anywhere that we call upon yhe name of Jesus. God’s dwelling place however is our bodies, because he lives in our hearts.

As I read this message, some job descriptions and requirements went through my mind. Some of the qualifications they asked for was a physical avbled body thst could withstand harsh conditions.  What if God needs you to travel somewhere dangerous,  will your body be sble to take it? What foods and toxics do you allow your body to take? Keeping God’s dwelling place is not judt about abstaing from fornication, dressing it up and covering it. Thses things do matter very much, but in what condition do you keep it? I didn’t realise how terribly I had been mistreating my body till I went through surgery. I was told if I had waited any longer, my knee would have had to be amputated.  What would I have accomplished if God had called me to live in hard situations?  I began maintaining my body in a manner that was suitable for a princess and strong enough for a warrior. I am still on that quest, rebuilding the weakened muscles on my knees that were damaged through years of torment in sports.  I never liked fresh milk, but that has been placed in my diet.

Spiritually, I have been looking at my attitude towards people and my reaction to things they d and say to me. There are moments I think a good punch will put them down for God, but God’s voice inside of me and his wisdom tell me otherwise.  I have learn to filter what I watch, so it does not define my thoughts and actions.

Faith’s response: Help me Lord to maintain the temple of my body in a condition that honours you.

WHOSE INTEREST IS IT? Where do you draw the line with your personal interest and God’s personal interest? 

This morning as I read the last chapter of 1 Peter, a thought crossed my mind as I finished reading. How will I share with people what i have read? Should I just post the chapter for them to read or how should I explain the message it has placed on my heart? Flash backs of conversations with friends went through my mind. In relation to those conversations, I decided to write as God leads me, because those were topics I had wrestled with and trying to understand their situations. 

CHURCH LEADERS AND ASPIRED PASTORS

The Apostle Peter wrote both to the Gentile and Jewish believers in Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Western Asia Minor and Bithynia, appealing to the elders to “Be shepherds of God’s flock that is under your care, serving as overseers – not because you must, but because you are willing, as God wants you to be; not greedy for money, but eager to serve; not lording it over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock” Verse 2-3. When I read these verses, something a friend shared with me broke my heart. I think I mentioned it in one of my articles earlier. A pastor in a church does not listen to anyone and does whatever he pleases. He is always right and everyone else is simply wrong. This pastor expected the church to dig up money and maintain his home, so he can live a luxurious life, and people seek favour by selling themselves to him. If this is the attitude we Christians carry with us, then are we truly doing what God has called us to do? Another friend, Vera, shared about one of her parents, who were aspiring to be a pastor, but didn’t get given a position in the church. When that didn’t happen, the parent took out their frustration on her and does not seem to have recovered from that rejection. If God didn’t want you to be a pastor, should you be angry? What if he needed you to take up that degree because he had something else in mind? Shouldn’t you serve God wherever and whenever you are called? We are all missionaries in Christ and we are to shepherd and minister to the lost not give them a wrong impression of who Christ is. Show love and care. “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart as working for the Lord not for men” Colossians 3:23. There are other stories, but let’s concentrate on the above examples. Think about them and reflect on your attitude and actions towards the work God has called you to. Are you obedient to him or to yourself?

MARRYING INTO A DIFFERENT RACE

I know the importance of family history and the will and need to continue the family business, name, race and you name it. Culture is one thing we value and cherish, which is beautiful and amazing. Where do we draw the line between understanding God’s will and our culture? What if your child decides to marry outside of culture because they have fallen-in-love? Will you as parents deny them their happiness, because the man/woman is from a different country, race and colour? I know this is a sensitive topic to most sheltered families who have not had many encounters with different cultures. As Christians though, should we disapprove of our children’s choices, just because we don’t want to have mixed children even if both couples are God’s children? I have watched a number of my friends’ part ways because their families didn’t approve of the other’s colour. Isn’t that being racist? I don’t know about you, but find it appalling that we as parents tend to think we know what’s best for our grown up children even when God has already assigned them duties and responsibilities and have given them the freedom to choose. I am not saying you as a parent become useless, but how about you accept their decision and pray with them rather than look down on the person they love and cherish? God in heaven sees our hearts and knows our thoughts. Our every action shall be accounted for before him, and I would urge parents out there to think about WHAT WOULD JESUS DO? “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” Verse 7. God is a better judge than you are, so let go off your fears and set your heart on obeying him. Bless your children and he will do the rest.

Those are two major conflicting issues I have been wrestling with, not knowing how to lay it out. God has given me grace and understanding to share my thoughts. It is not easy to follow God without letting our own personal interests get in the way. We however have a choice on how we respond and react to those prideful desires and thoughts. Let us spread wide in the arms of Christ.

11 Dear friends, I urge you, as foreigners and exiles, to abstain from sinful desires, which wage war against your soul. 12 Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us. 13 Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human authority: whether to the emperor, as the supreme authority, 14 or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. 15 For it is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish people. 16 Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God’s slaves. 17 Show proper respect to everyone, love the family of believers, fear God, honor the emperor.18 Slaves, in reverent fear of God submit yourselves to your masters, not only to those who are good and considerate, but also to those who are harsh. 19 For it is commendable if someone bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because they are conscious of God. 20 But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God. 21 To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps. 1 Peter 2:11-21. WHAT EXACTLY DOES IT MEAN TO LIVE GODLY LIVES AMONG PAGANS? SOME ANSWERS PLEASE

In response to the above verses, a dear friend of mine gave her testimony. I only edited a few errors, but this is what she said. 

Wow sis, I can talk about this all day. Living Godly lives start with abstaining from committing sin, then abstaining from activities which don’t glorify God, and living as a light in grace and truth from the Lord. That’s the theology; the application however can take many forms. In modern terms the pagans would be the world, so it would be how we as Christians should live in it. We still have to interact with people because we are not yet dead but we can’t be “in” the world. To make it more understandable, I will give some examples of things which i have removed from my life. 1. Fornication: Most pagans believe its normal at a certain age to engage in sexual activities. I used to think that way as well. 2. Movies and TV: If you won’t engage in the sin, why support it by watching or buying it? 3. Doctrine of devils,  such as do what you will or only respect those who respect you. It is a lie and Jesus teaches us to love even our enemies and do the father’s will. And so on. Doing such things has sent friends away and most people don’t get it. But that is the blessing in that we can stand out as that light when we live for Christ and through our actions and convictions others will be saved or blessed.

ME: I could not have said it any better. It takes courage and strength to express what you have expressed my love. Many of us will die with the truth of what are lives used to be like. To have you confess all that you have left behind is such a blessing to many who are afraid to let go. Like you, I lost many friends, because I would not do what they did, I would not dress how they would and I would not go where they wanted. They thought I was uncool being me. I found pure joy in knowing that the one who knows me best thought I was cooler than them all. The language that comes out of our mouth is debatable, depending on what is acceptable to the world. When we speak like the world, gossip like the world and laugh like the world, then we become friends with the world, which tears at God’s heart. What music do people listen too? Is the music building your character positively or negatively? What music videos do you allow your brain to register? Sex and drugs or soul touching? There are secular songs that give encouragement, but those have lost their value today due to the market-demand for unhealthy things. The clothes you wear, do they glorify God? At night when no one is watching, do you feel guilty with what you are wearing to go out?

You are my sister in Christ indeed. For the things you have spoken the spirit in me fully agrees with and loves! I forgot to mention dressing modestly, I was recently convicted of that. I ended up deleting my facebook pictures which still depicted me in a worldly way lest other be confused by whom I served. Girl we can speak about gossip all day. Being false witness and having a spirit of deception. Not really gossiping but planting seeds of deception. All these things people of the world do without even knowing. Am baffled, reverse psychology has become a novelty, now. Sis I love telling people what I have done (which is plenty) because I know so many people think Christians are just hypocrites. As the Holy Spirit leads I share my testimony, there is power in that. And a loving God washing all sins and makes us white as snow. It’s a testimony of who Jesus is.

I’d also like to add that living Godly starts with Jesus himself who died on the cross for our sins. THE Christ. If there is no love of Christ then living apart from the world won’t happen and even if it does, it will simply be legalism and the law. Which as the word tells us is weak.

This is a testimony of a dear sister who speaks from her heart and life. What’s your story like. What are the lessons you have to offer others, and help a sister or brother have hope for their life?

But they will have to give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead. For this is the reason the gospel was preached even to those who are now dead, so that they might be judged according to men in regard to the body, but live according to God in regard to the spirit. The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins 1 Peter 4:5-8

If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 peter 4:11

In my line of work, I meet various kinds of people with different beliefs. Some have defined perspectives on God and others have questions. Yet still others have assumptions of how religion should work and others are afraid to admit that there’s a higher power bigger than them. Our societies have defined what’s “right” for us, so much that we are blinded by it’s lies. Before we were born, and before our society came to have intellectual ideas and new toys to play with, God already existed. How then should God evolve with the dynamics of the society, when he had already  established rules of our society? 

For example, I had an encounter with a man yesterday and we got talking. I asked him if he was a Christian and he said ‘I am not interested in religion’. Why? I asked ‘Because religion does not accept people for who they are’. What do you mean? ‘Well I am a member of the gay society and other gender related organizations, but there are people who do not advocate for these movements’. What does that have to do with God and the Bible? ‘Religion has not moved at all and the society has changed’. Do you think something written over thousands of years ago should change because we as humans have defined what we think is right for us? ‘I think the society is changing and religion too has to accept people the way they are.’ You know that the things we belief in today are not new. ‘Yes i know, but things have to change.’ So do you mean we should tell God what is right for us? 

Our conversation was cut short when some people needed my attention. Somehow the questions kept coming out of me, and we didn’t feel awkward or judgmental at all. As he had his coffee and we chatted, a sad feeling came over me. I kept going over the part where ‘RELIGION HAS NOT CAUGHT UP WITH SOCIETY’. I was also taken back to my RET 321 course  at Daystar University, where we were talking about Culture and the Bible. Should culture be above the Bible or should the Bible be above culture? Who do we report to? Do we report to the teachings of God or the teachings of our society? If you shy away from God because he will tell you what you don’t want to hear, how will you know what he wanted to tell you to decide if that was what you had expected him to tell you? So many times we have preconceived ideas of what we think someone is thinking till you actually listen to them to understand that you had a poor imagination.

I simply told the man that God wants to know him and wants to have a relationship with him. When he has met God and knows what God wants from him, then both of them can decide how to move on together. Just because the society has allow you to go a certain way and others have shun you, it does not mean God has abandon you. You meet him and if you still think God should change his views, then that will be up to you after meeting him and talking to him. God love you and simply wants you to get to know him without thinking he is religious. 

I asked  two other guys if they went to church and one said, I am an atheist. I don’t believe in anything. I have to see to believe. Religion is not for me. The other man said, I have done too many bad things in my life and see no return. I felt like cracking their heads and shoving down John 3:16 and all the Bible passages to do with God’s forgiveness and wisdom. But that would not have glorified God, So I just smiled and said ‘you have no idea’. I still invited them to our church. Sometimes some show up and sometimes they don’t. 

I have many more examples, but in relation to the verses above, should we abandon these people who are lost or don’t think they are lost? Should we judge them and think them helpless? Peter suggest two things to us. In as much as these things are hard to accept, we need to remember that ‘The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray.’ vs 7. When speaking to these people, we should be clear minded and self-controlled. When we are settled, the Holy Spirit will lead us with the right words. We shall speak as if God is the one speaking those words. vs 11. We also need to have a clear mind, so we are able to pray, especially when we do not know what to do. The second thing is that we should ‘above all love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins’. vs 8. In churches we shun people who have gone astray and condemn them rather than helping them get back on the right path. We gossip behind their backs and snicker when when they walk pass us, so that they feel unloved and unwanted. To us, we are telling them ‘How could you do such a thing? If it was me, I would not have gone that far. What were you thinking? Stay away from me and my family. You are a bad influence’. Our attitudes towards them, heap up enough sins on our part. When we show love and concern from our hearts, we cover up those multitudes of sins that would arise if we deny them forgiveness. 

Think about what has been said above, and I will leave you with this quote by Gerald Way 

“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching”

For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake 1 Peter 1:18-20

How many of us have heard people say ‘I am a good person. I go to church on Sundays, give to the poor and don’t do bad things. I am faithful‘? In the countries that I have lived in and visited, I have seen a number of good deeds and a great number of church goers. I have had complains of Christianity within the church from various numbers of people. Within the church, you will find very ‘spiritual’ people, who are also ‘busy-bodies’ always ready to serve and give an answer to all your problems. Yet deep down, they are hallow and void. Others have tend to put their material things first, always ready with gifts for the church and anyone in need. However, when you look at their lives, hairs stand at the back of your neck. I am not exaggerating anything here. We have pastors extorting money from the people. Rather than serving the people, they give conditions as to how they people should pay them for their services, such as building them a house, buying them a car or providing them with something extravagant. Is this really what it means to be a Christian? 

My heart aches for our churches these days. Christianity is being turned into a profitable market. When Jesus flocked the sellers in the temple, he didn’t flock them because they were doing the wrong thing. They off course were doing the right thing, but with the wrong motives. They were selling animals for sacrifice, but they had turned that goal for profit. That offended Jesus. 

Now if we as Christ’s followers who are called to love start exchanging the reason for Christ’s coming for money, what becomes of our mission then? Our salvation was not bought with gold nor through good deeds, but was because of ‘his great mercy that he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade – kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time‘ 1 Pet 1:3-5.

We are called to be Holy in all we do, because God is Holy. Our salvation is seen through faith. Understanding your salvation enables you to carry out deeds of love, not material deeds. Your faith and actions need to be in accordance with each other. Abraham’s faith went with his actions James 2:21-22. 

You might be the best person that everyone loves and adores, because you feed the poor, give clothes to the naked and take care of the sick. If you have no love of the father, you toil in vain. You cannot buy your way to heaven through good deeds. As hard as this is hard to believe, Jesus said in Matthew 7:21-23 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles? Then I will tell them plainly, I never knew you, Away from me, you evil-doer!’ Do not become a good deed person and lose out on your salvation. 

Many people enter mission work not because they have been called into it. A pastor is paid by the church, and it is the congregation that maintains his upkeep. Who would not want such a life? We see many false preachers without an ounce of salvation or spiritual led sermons that stand on the pulpit and give words rather than wisdom. A person called by God to serve in that line of duty, will not need his Bible to preach, but the Holy Spirit within him will give the words. When God calls you to do your work, he goes with you and leads you. You are connected with him and people can feel the spirit moving in the service. Speaking to people rather than with people will tell you who you are. Let your actions be in accordance with your faith in Christ Jesus. It doesn’t matter whether you do good, but if you have no salvation you toil in vain. Even if you have salvation and work as if you are forced into it, you toil in vain. Your service should be to God alone not for men to see it.

“Therefore, confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective” James 5:16

It is not always easy to come out and be vulnerable. Many people have developed the ‘I know what’s right, so you can’t tell me anything’ attitude. You might be one of them or you might have someone in your family that has that attitude. 

As I was growing up, i realized that having such an attitude, not only hurt those around me, but also hurt me since it will leave me lonely. I would do wrong things and try to justify my actions. Although most often it was the right things, it was in the wrong context. People would blame me for stuff, do me wrong and not say they were sorry. I wanted acknowledgement of the wrong deeds. When that didn’t come, i figured i could also get away without saying i was sorry. But thank God the Holy Spirit would not have it any other way. He would push and push my buttons till i felt too guilty and would admit to the wrong I did. That became my song over the years, and it was often from the heart. 

However, one may change who they are, but the world around them will still be the same. You might have the temptation to settle back in that old self. Just a few months ago, I had a misunderstanding with a friend. He did something wrong and as a friend, I rebuked him because I knew he knew better. He took it the wrong way and accused me of shouting at him and being difficult. I let that slip, because that was not what happened at all, but then he dug up old trespasses that had been forgiven in the past and added to the list. That took me by surprise, because I always made sure we reconciled in our arguments before moving on with life, rather than shoving things under the carpet. 

I then refused to settle our misunderstanding, because i was hurt that he could do such a thing. I waited for him to apologize, but he cut off communication for 4 weeks. I felt the voice inside of me telling me to settle the issue, because it was hurting me so much. So I called him up to straighten things out, but he would not respond to emails or answer my calls. 4 months went by, and I opened my emails one evening and found one from him. Tears came to my eyes and I cried out to God in happiness. Unknown to him, i had forgiven him the first few weeks of our misunderstanding and had just been waiting for him to apologize for what he did. 

When I saw his email, i just cried for joy, because i thought for months that i had lost a good friend over a silly misunderstanding. He apologized for the decision he made and for hurting me. That was all I wanted to hear. I love settling things and parting ways on a good note with everyone. If I hurt someone or meet an acquaintance and made them awkward, I would go back and make things right by putting them at ease. I had been praying for him and he had been praying for me. 

It is good to confess one’s sins and reconcile. Right now I am praying for certain members of my family, to let go off their pride and accept responsibility for their sins. People who never recognize their wrong doings hurt those they claim to care for more than someone from outside. How can you make things right if you are not willing to admit to the wrong you have done? 

Come near to God and he will come near to you James 4:8

I always feel like reaching out to you God. I don’t need to reach out too far because he is right next to me. God’s home is in you. Hebrews 5:6 “I will never forsake you nor leave you”. god is the center of our whole being. God does not want a 30-45 minute time with you on Sunday. He wants everyday, hour and second with you. 

I and my father are one: I only say what my father says, I only do what my father does. Do you do what God does? We often say, I want to know God, I want to be one with him, but why don’t you/we? John 17:10: “All I have is yours and all you have is mine. And glory has come to me through them”. I don’t want to be half way with whom I used to be. I want to go all the way with God.  

Jesus can only be at one place at one time, but the Holy Spirit can be everywhere. If the Holy Spirit is not there to teach you, you will not understand or know the world. John 16: 7 “But very truly I tell you, it is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Advocate will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. 8 When he comes, he will prove the world to be in the wrong about sin and righteousness and judgment: 9 about sin, because people do not believe in me; 10 about righteousness, because I am going to the Father, where you can see me no longer; 11 and about judgment, because the prince of this world now stands condemned.”

It is better that i go away so that the Holy Spirit can come. Stand by intercessor: HELP ME Holy Spirit. Learn to say HELP ME with a Sincere hear. Be utterly sincere about it. The intercessor wants close fellowship with you. God wants to be involve in your everyday life. You are always in an emergency with God. YOu are always in the emergency room. When the Holy Spirit convicts you of sin, be grateful. it means he loves you too much to leave you alone. 

sometimes people jump into your problems, but the Holy Spirit waits for the right time. We need to trust God to help us. We need to ask God to help us get through the problem. As helpers and comforters to others, we do not need to try and make them change, but pray for the Holy Spirit to reveal a way to the person with a problem. 

Christ has a magnetic attraction: Spirit and soul will live forever. You should respect your body for it is God’s home. God is not mad at you. The spiritual part of you is more important than the parts you see. you connect yourself with your soul. the World should see God through you. Instead of telling God that we want to feel, think like him, we should tell him how we want to think, how we want to feel. God wants the soul to be connected with the spirit that’s in you. I WANT, I THINK, I FEEL.

There are obstacles in the soul, but I can do whatever I want through Christ who strengthens me. Lord when i ask you for something that you don’t want me to have, then don’t give it to me. We start things in the flesh and blame the devil for it. The worst thing is being in a place where you don’t want to be. Greatest lessons I have learnt in life is doing the wrong thing and learning not to do them again. 

God said in Isaiah, My ways are above your ways, my thous are above your thoughts. I Corinthians 13:11 “when i was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When i became a man, i put childish ways behind me.”

I WANT: Sometimes we give god advice on how to hand us. It is one thing to be a child and another to act childish. A mature Christian should be happy even when they don’t get their way. He/she should be quick to forgive as well. Galatians 4:1-2 “What i am say is that as the hier is a child, he is no different from a slave, although he owns the whole estate. He is subject to guardians and trustees until the time set by his father.” You are not justified in your anger. Everything God has is mine and I will transfer it to you (said Jesus). Everything the Father has is yours. In reality it won’t come to us unless we show responsibility. Do you know how hard it is for God to find someone who will give him all the glory? We all want a lot of stuff, that we are not ready to have them. If we are not faithful over little, we wont’ be faithful over much. Help the believer grow up the way God has called them to be. 

IT IS TIME TO GROW UP. LOVE even if they don’t DESERVE IT. You can’t help the way you feel, but you can help how you deal with it. John 3:30 ‘He must become greater, I must become less.”

A few years back, on my way to becoming a better Christian, I realized I was a bitter, judgmental, critical and angered woman. For years I had watched Christians hurt one another, yet expecting the very people they have hurt to give them respect and obedience. Having watched this for 8 years, I wanted nothing to do with God. I could not stand injustices and the ways people trample over others. However, my life was never mine to begin with. I asked God to be my father at the age of 16. For two years, I saw no change in who I was. I was still bitter, judgmental and angry. Went through anger management and finally felt ready at 18. I worked hard at how i saw other people’s attitudes and how i responded to them. It was not a sweet ride, but over the last 7 years, God has been teaching me more about who I was, am and the person I should be in him. The results of who I have become in the last 7 years came to pass on Saturday 5th July.

I was collecting food in front of TESCO on behalf of Bradford Central Foodbank. As people streamed in and we gave them leaflets, some people showed interest, others just grabbed the leaflets as they quickly walked passed, some said “not interested” and others said “I gave in London” and others surprised you with anger over how a donations box was taken away and it made them really cross. When they came back out with their shopping, they will look at you to see if you noticed them, especially those who did not buy anything to donate. Others came out and remembered, so they would donate money instead and others came out with one or two of the items that was on the leaflet. Yet again, others gave bags of food that just blew you away. At the time, I just smiled, thank those who gave, acknowledge those who had taken the leaflet yet bought nothing and said goodbye to others. 

When I first came on the scene and was rejected the first time i extended my hand with a leaflet, I felt hurt. I took it personally and just asked myself as to why would you not even take a leaflet. I had a downcast moment and didn’t know what to do if they kept rejecting my leaflets. I said a little prayer and had a sense of peace. Instead of thinking they were just selfish, I began telling myself not to be angry at them or be judgmental for i don’t know how life at home is for them. I have watched people come into Foodbank, and couldn’t believe that this person need food. However, when they start sharing about their situation, you realize how much we often judge a book by its cover. Back to TESCO. 

I told myself i was going to be happy, accepting the people’s decisions and being the me that i have become. Children came along smiling, which made my day. People came that spoke no English yet were interested, so i was stuck with language barrier not knowing how to explain to them what we were doing. So we just smiled at each other and nodded our heads in acknowledgement. A few business men came in, but refused to take the leaflets and I unconsciously asked myself if they have never been in a bad situation. However, I didn’t push them or anything, but I kept praying that people will be moved.

Monday at work, we reflected on the weekend’s work. I realized that everyone that volunteered on the weekend, had the same experience. Having people say no, yes, walk away or avoided the entrance that we were standing at. Our Coordinator simply asked about our attitudes towards these people. Provoking me to reflect on my attitudes towards their attitudes, enabled me to see how much i grew in 7 years. When things seemed a little blurry at the beginning, I ran to the one person that could make me see clearer. God gave me a sense of peace and wisdom to pray for the hearts and souls that came in. 

We were reminded in Colossians 3:23 that: Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

Our attitudes at work, should represent Christ. We should serve people, because it is our purpose for the job we have. We shouldn’t serve because we want others to see, but because we are doing it for God. I made a decision to smile, dance and encourage people’s day even if they were not willing to give. I put myself in their shoes. I rejoiced when people donated food, and I prayed for those who didn’t. In all honesty, I would have preferred to play with the little girls and boys that came through. They were more exciting, but i had a job to do and that was encourage people to give.

How do you respond to people with difficult attitudes?